Since none of my friends read this and I just want to shout to the world today.
I don't mind that they don't, I prefer it that way sometimes. I don't say poignant or funny things so I don't mind not being internet famous. I do this for myself.
I don't know what's wrong with me this past week. I just want to stay home and cry all day. Maybe it's because I have womanly issues right now. Maybe people haven't been as nice to me. Maybe it's because I really am heartbroken that he's taken. Or most probably it's because I just feel like I can't do anything right ever. I'm currently overly sensitive and getting cut down the way I did the other day just hurt, then I got cut down again. And again. All by different people who I care about. I don't like being this way. I just want to be happy again.
Don't get me wrong. I have things I am very grateful for and they do make me genuinely happy. I thank God all the time for my car and my job and being able to go to Disneyland and my trainer.
Then I get to this point where I just want to break down and feel like most people don't care, and it hurts all the more when it's people I care about. I feel like everyone is so superficial. Ok not everyone, just when I'd like someone to say kind genuine words that I can believe. I don't know what those words are I just know I need to hear them. Except if they do that I'll probably start crying.
I just want a reason to smile, instead of just smiling all the time.
Little old, lonely me.
Love, Etc.,
Dorothy
